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My band, Politik 89, will be playing our next show November 12 at Mardi Gras. We're supporting Reliquary & Espermachine. So, I'm selling tickets (prices below). It really, really helps the band out if you buy tickets ahead of time, plus I have some deals going on Ticket/CD combos. I, of course, promise to put on a great show, and if you saw us at Sadisco* in September, you know I deliver on those promises.

1 Ticket = $6
1 Ticke​t + a copy of So Young​,​​ So Frail​ = $15
2 Ticke​ts + a copy of So Young​,​​ So Frail​ = $20

I'll be at The Strand show tonight @ Rogue Bar, Tranz Friday, Sadisco* next Saturday, and various other events.

So, my locker was broken into last night.

I went into the locker room today, unlocked my lock, and found that all my books were neatly arranged, as if on a bookshelf, on the bottom shelf of the locker, in alphabetical order. All my loose papers (class handouts), were on the top shelf, in a neat pile. Yesterday, when I left school, it was all disordered, books and papers all stacked on each other on both shelves.

Who commits burglary only to organize books?

I'm too excited for Saturday. I mean, I'm afraid it'll be a train wreck, but I'm very excited about the opportunity to go all out onstage...

Oh yeah, and today I met Justice Sandra Day O'Connor (Ret.)...

So, today the EP went out to the pressers...

It sounds amazing - but I'm totally insecure about it.

The artwork is great, clean, and expressive - but I'm totally insecure about it.

I'm not sure if I'm scared because I'm comparing my product with the product of people who have loads better ideas and money than I do or if I'm scared because it's final, that I let it out of my hands and now, and it is what it is.

I mean, it really is great in so many ways - and I'm astounded at the product I put together. But it'd be nice if it was 14 tracks, with a 20 page booklet in a digipak. . .

I'm in love, and I've been in love with the same girl for 9 months now. . . Only now does it seem possible, and only now do i seem incapable of containing myself.

I'm horrible like this - absolute rot.

Well, it's official.

I'd been procrastinating it for quite some time, but I finally had to do it. I e-mailed Queen Mary, University of London that I wouldn't be attending in the Autumn and also Dr. Colin Jones to explain. It's probably one of the hardest things I've ever done - shutting the door on a dream like that. But, I have a new dream now, and I think with this dream I can do more good in the world. I hope it will be worth it.

Well, I'm sitting here in my underwear and robe, letting the last drips of water dry off from my shower. I've been running a good deal lately; I'm up to three miles now. In May, I'm hoping to take a trip to the Yucatán with my father to see the Mayan ruins and would like to be in better shape for when I climb Kukulcan and hike through the jungle. Also, I feel a lot better the next day if I run. With so much changing in my life, my working out and running really do help me grapple on to things.

About those changes. . .

I graduated from ASU in December, Summa Cum Laude, with BAs in History and Religious Studies. 17 September, I start at Queen Mary, University of London for my MA/PhD in History. Old Regime French Cultural History, to be more precise. So, I have a day less than eight months remaining here in Arizona. It'll be a huge change - leaving the country, living in a new culture, leaving home, etc. I've also been working full time since 2 January at the law office where I've worked now for a year and a half. I'm taking on more responsibilities there and this week, I'm beginning to not mind it so much, although I have no idea how anyone goes out during the week. I'm having to set aside the lion's share of my paychecks towards my grad school kitty, so I'm not particularly benefitting, in the immediate sense, from the long days. But, such is life.

I cut my hair in December, and it's now very short - I like it better this way. I've been trying to distance myself from the scene, such as it is out here, because, frankly I'm just a bit bored of it. I've been having a killer time lately having house parties with friends or going to the Skeptical Chymist on Friday nights. Politik 89 rehearsals start up again next week.

Past that, nothing else is new in my life, just growing up. . .

I didn't get in to Cambridge, oh well, I'm more excited about Queen Mary anyways.

But still, would have been nice to get into Cambridge.

Also had a great extended weekend with Heather, who was in from New York. I guess I owe her a visit at some point.

Am hoping Miss Liberté will want to hang out tonight, she's really great, if flaky. I know, I know, you're going to say I was double timing it, but I can't help it when a hot blonde comes in town and is interested. . .

Yes, Brian, my proclamation turned out to be truer than I could have ever ventured lol.

So, today I got an e-mail saying:

Dear Nelson,

I’m pleased to inform you that the convenor for the MA in History has made you an unconditional offer to begin in September 2008.

Your application has been returned to Admissions and Recruitment who will be in touch shortly with a formal offer.

If you have any queries in the meantime please do not hesitate to contact me.

Regards

Sam Cole

Postgraduate Administrator

Department of History

Queen Mary, University of London

Mile End Road

London

E1 4NS

I'm unsure about what to do, but I'm sure I like her, and I'm fairly certain she likes me. Also bummed that going out with her tonight got cancelled, she had some drama come up. Is compassion a bad feeling to have for a girl?

So, last week I turned 21. Drank too much, had an amazing time.

Saturday, went to the Fetish Ball, wore too little, had an amazing time (not that good, how lucky do you think I'm not?).

Today got my applications to Cambridge University and Queen Mary, University of London mailed in. I really hope I get in, but I'll need a rather nice scholarship to make it possible.

Things are going great, but I feel really nervous about a lot. I guess it can't be helped - I graduate in December and then I sit around and wait for nine months to leave off for grad school.

I feel like I'm making amazing progress in some areas, and I feel completely lost in others, and terribly alone.

*shrug*, on se debrouillera toujours.

I'm very excited:

Also, Alter Der Ruine & DJ AKA have joined the bill, so that should be good too.

Hope to see y'all out there.

Quite a blur.

Me + booze = out of control

In fact me lately = out of control

But I think I've gotten some of it out of my system.

I mean, I had a good time, but did I need to be so inebriated that I was incapacitated all Saturday?

I think not.

But it's very easy to just say "Sure, I'll have one more drink." And the next thing you know, you're passing out, and the story ends there, sort of.

I'm right now in that viscerally grey area between certainty and uncertainty, hope and despair.

In other words, I have a lot of artistic energy :)

Rocky Horror was just an astounding time, best time I've had out with a girl in, well, probably ever. . .

And she's a very talented MUA too, I looked pretty damn good.