midnight on the freeway of good and evil

Ack!

Mon, 01 Dec 2008 15:11:48 GMT

This week is my last week of my first semester at law school.

Next week begins the finals, which last through the 16th.

I hate studying...

Next Concert: 12 November

Thu, 30 Oct 2008 22:53:19 GMT

My band, Politik 89, will be playing our next show November 12 at Mardi Gras. We're supporting Reliquary & Espermachine. So, I'm selling tickets (prices below). It really, really helps the band out if you buy tickets ahead of time, plus I have some deals going on Ticket/CD combos. I, of course, promise to put on a great show, and if you saw us at Sadisco* in September, you know I deliver on those promises.

1 Ticket = $6
1 Ticket + a copy of So Young, So Frail = $15
2 Tickets + a copy of So Young, So Frail = $20

I'll be at The Strand show tonight @ Rogue Bar, Tranz Friday, Sadisco* next Saturday, and various other events.

Burglary

Fri, 17 Oct 2008 18:01:18 GMT

So, my locker was broken into last night.

I went into the locker room today, unlocked my lock, and found that all my books were neatly arranged, as if on a bookshelf, on the bottom shelf of the locker, in alphabetical order. All my loose papers (class handouts), were on the top shelf, in a neat pile. Yesterday, when I left school, it was all disordered, books and papers all stacked on each other on both shelves.

Who commits burglary only to organize books?

CDs arrived!

Fri, 12 Sep 2008 07:34:26 GMT

So yeah, just got home to see two boxes full of "So Young, So Frail."

ROCK!

(Yes, that is the name of my debut CD)

Can't sleep

Wed, 10 Sep 2008 08:00:59 GMT

I'm too excited for Saturday. I mean, I'm afraid it'll be a train wreck, but I'm very excited about the opportunity to go all out onstage...

Oh yeah, and today I met Justice Sandra Day O'Connor (Ret.)...

So Young, So Frail

Wed, 27 Aug 2008 05:30:04 GMT

So, today the EP went out to the pressers...

It sounds amazing - but I'm totally insecure about it.

The artwork is great, clean, and expressive - but I'm totally insecure about it.

I'm not sure if I'm scared because I'm comparing my product with the product of people who have loads better ideas and money than I do or if I'm scared because it's final, that I let it out of my hands and now, and it is what it is.

I mean, it really is great in so many ways - and I'm astounded at the product I put together. But it'd be nice if it was 14 tracks, with a 20 page booklet in a digipak. . .

Law school

Tue, 22 Jul 2008 00:36:34 GMT

Today the Dean called to tell me I got in to law school at ASU starting August 25th.

Big sigh of relief. . .

Heartache

Sat, 21 Jun 2008 11:08:55 GMT

I'm in love, and I've been in love with the same girl for 9 months now. . . Only now does it seem possible, and only now do i seem incapable of containing myself.

I'm horrible like this - absolute rot.

One dream gone. . .

Wed, 04 Jun 2008 05:36:14 GMT

Well, it's official.

I'd been procrastinating it for quite some time, but I finally had to do it. I e-mailed Queen Mary, University of London that I wouldn't be attending in the Autumn and also Dr. Colin Jones to explain. It's probably one of the hardest things I've ever done - shutting the door on a dream like that. But, I have a new dream now, and I think with this dream I can do more good in the world. I hope it will be worth it.

All the love I need. . .

Thu, 01 May 2008 06:24:16 GMT

And I finally have her. . .

How things are these days. . .

Sat, 19 Jan 2008 02:51:25 GMT

Well, I'm sitting here in my underwear and robe, letting the last drips of water dry off from my shower. I've been running a good deal lately; I'm up to three miles now. In May, I'm hoping to take a trip to the Yucatán with my father to see the Mayan ruins and would like to be in better shape for when I climb Kukulcan and hike through the jungle. Also, I feel a lot better the next day if I run. With so much changing in my life, my working out and running really do help me grapple on to things.

About those changes. . .

I graduated from ASU in December, Summa Cum Laude, with BAs in History and Religious Studies. 17 September, I start at Queen Mary, University of London for my MA/PhD in History. Old Regime French Cultural History, to be more precise. So, I have a day less than eight months remaining here in Arizona. It'll be a huge change - leaving the country, living in a new culture, leaving home, etc. I've also been working full time since 2 January at the law office where I've worked now for a year and a half. I'm taking on more responsibilities there and this week, I'm beginning to not mind it so much, although I have no idea how anyone goes out during the week. I'm having to set aside the lion's share of my paychecks towards my grad school kitty, so I'm not particularly benefitting, in the immediate sense, from the long days. But, such is life.

I cut my hair in December, and it's now very short - I like it better this way. I've been trying to distance myself from the scene, such as it is out here, because, frankly I'm just a bit bored of it. I've been having a killer time lately having house parties with friends or going to the Skeptical Chymist on Friday nights. Politik 89 rehearsals start up again next week.

Past that, nothing else is new in my life, just growing up. . .

So. . .

Wed, 28 Nov 2007 00:10:54 GMT

I didn't get in to Cambridge, oh well, I'm more excited about Queen Mary anyways.

But still, would have been nice to get into Cambridge.

Also had a great extended weekend with Heather, who was in from New York. I guess I owe her a visit at some point.

Am hoping Miss Liberté will want to hang out tonight, she's really great, if flaky. I know, I know, you're going to say I was double timing it, but I can't help it when a hot blonde comes in town and is interested. . .

Yes, Brian, my proclamation turned out to be truer than I could have ever ventured lol.

Woohoo!!

Fri, 16 Nov 2007 08:32:28 GMT

So, today I got an e-mail saying:

Dear Nelson,

I’m pleased to inform you that the convenor for the MA in History has made you an unconditional offer to begin in September 2008.

Your application has been returned to Admissions and Recruitment who will be in touch shortly with a formal offer.

If you have any queries in the meantime please do not hesitate to contact me.

Regards

Sam Cole

Postgraduate Administrator

Department of History

Queen Mary, University of London

Mile End Road

London

E1 4NS

Unsure

Fri, 09 Nov 2007 03:29:11 GMT

I'm unsure about what to do, but I'm sure I like her, and I'm fairly certain she likes me. Also bummed that going out with her tonight got cancelled, she had some drama come up. Is compassion a bad feeling to have for a girl?

Reflections

Wed, 10 Oct 2007 02:15:14 GMT

So, last week I turned 21. Drank too much, had an amazing time.

Saturday, went to the Fetish Ball, wore too little, had an amazing time (not that good, how lucky do you think I'm not?).

Today got my applications to Cambridge University and Queen Mary, University of London mailed in. I really hope I get in, but I'll need a rather nice scholarship to make it possible.

Things are going great, but I feel really nervous about a lot. I guess it can't be helped - I graduate in December and then I sit around and wait for nine months to leave off for grad school.

I feel like I'm making amazing progress in some areas, and I feel completely lost in others, and terribly alone.

*shrug*, on se debrouillera toujours.

My Birthday

Mon, 01 Oct 2007 06:08:50 GMT

I'm very excited:

Also, Alter Der Ruine & DJ AKA have joined the bill, so that should be good too.

Hope to see y'all out there.

A haiku I wrote

Fri, 28 Sep 2007 06:32:00 GMT

My glorious obsession
You are stiletto-heeled boots
Of the pirate kind

Just yum is all I'm going to say.

So, the weekend. . .

Mon, 24 Sep 2007 01:43:24 GMT

Quite a blur.

Me + booze = out of control

In fact me lately = out of control

But I think I've gotten some of it out of my system.

I mean, I had a good time, but did I need to be so inebriated that I was incapacitated all Saturday?

I think not.

But it's very easy to just say "Sure, I'll have one more drink." And the next thing you know, you're passing out, and the story ends there, sort of.

Oh well

Fri, 21 Sep 2007 03:11:31 GMT

I guess it's just not going to happen,

Fuck you traffic.

*cries*

And so, the music blares.

Sun, 16 Sep 2007 20:03:47 GMT

I'm right now in that viscerally grey area between certainty and uncertainty, hope and despair.

In other words, I have a lot of artistic energy :)

Rocky Horror was just an astounding time, best time I've had out with a girl in, well, probably ever. . .

And she's a very talented MUA too, I looked pretty damn good.

Wed, 12 Sep 2007 01:44:28 GMT

So, I've found this girl.

She's intelligent, charming, seems very responsible and gorgeous. And, wouldn't you know it, but it's obvious she's interested in me. Hell, she's even a fellow ASU student.

There is, however, one small problem. She doesn't turn 18 until 20 October. So, I have to be a good boy. . . But it's okay.

We're going to Rocky on Saturday, if anyone else plans on going.

Oh, and the whole working out/weight loss thing is going just great, dropped 7lbs in a week on Atkins, and am gaining some good muscle. I actually feel like I have pecs now.

Vacation. . .

Tue, 26 Jun 2007 22:57:15 GMT

It'll be nice to get away for a couple weeks, even if it is Jackson, MS and New Orleans.

Skinny Puppy was amazing, although I didn't like getting caught in the mosh pit up front. Why do the metalheads have to ruin The Sisters of Mercy and Skinny Puppy like that? I know it's unpopular to have a strong disdain metal/metalheads, but I do. Especially when they slam into me at a Goth/Industrial show, or mess with my heart. . .

Have to study for my GRE while in Jackson, although I only need it for the application to UCLA. I really want to go to Queen Mary's College, University of London or King's College, Cambridge University, to study under Dr. Colin Jones or Dr. Michael Sonenscher, respectfully. I'll have to do an MPhil first, but it's only a one year program, and basically a 60-page thesis if I do it on Theory of History. Big decisions to make, and expensive any which way I go. Hopefully, I get a studentship, or a Gates Foundation scholarship at Cambridge.

Well, I guess I'll see y'all when I get back on 14 July.

Crash and Burn

Thu, 31 May 2007 04:37:05 GMT

For those of you who don't know, I broke up with Emmily two weeks ago tomorrow. Like all my relationships, it went for a tail spin. It really hurt to do it, but I had to. Two weeks beforehand, she wanted to remove the "girlfriend" title and keep things the same - which was a shock, but I figured if the title was all that was in the way, why not. Well, I found out a couple days later that the she'd ditched out on seeing me to walk on snow white with a friend. She didn't understand, at all, why that would upset me. Should've been a warning sign there, anyways the issue sort of dragged out to where she had said she wouldn't do anything around me. And, while I didn't agree with it, I chose not to press the point forward too hard since it was the middle of finals and I just didn't wish to deal with it then, and things were still good. Well, last Black Coffee she showed up high as a kite - I've never seen eyes so bloodshot. And, friends were coming up to me and asking if I knew Emmily was blazed out of her mind. The result was severe embarassment, and I really didn't like being scandalized in that matter. I tried calling but she wasn't interested in talking and I gathered she'd been high and might be for some time. So, unfortunately, I had to handle the matter via MySpace, which is lame. But, I consoled myself with the hope that she might be able to re-read it at some point when she was sober.

She has severe depression issues, and hasn't had a rosy childhood or teenage years, and is, frankly, an addict and only knows how to make her feel better with drugs, pot mostly. The problem is, she had no idea that she was choosing between pot and me. She has absolutely no idea what choice and consequence are. And, she says it makes her feel better, but she was just about a complete zombie at Black Coffee and just about totally ignored me. It really doesn't help her, she just runs from her problems with it. It really hurts like hell, because I really loved her, but she just didn't love me back, despite what she says. I know love comes with responsibility, but she doesn't.

Love & Lust

Thu, 12 Apr 2007 19:29:14 GMT

So, things are going great with Emmily. Some of you will know that I've had my eye on her since I first met her, and the obsession has paid off. She's perhaps the kindest girl I've ever met, is very affirming of me, and just a doll. She's breathtakingly gorgeous, which is also a plus. We shared the most amazing first kiss in the jacuzzi surrounded by massive walls of bubbles; it was so memorable, and fun and romantic. I really don't want to bring out the "l" word, but it looks like it'll be that way, and I'm okay with it. It sucks falling in love when I have 75 pages of papers to write by the first week of May. But, I'm very happy, and am glad things have turned out like they have, even if we've committed a social faux pas.

One of my few happy entries on here, hehe.

My answer to America's problams

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 02:27:12 GMT

Restrict voting rights to those with PhDs. . .

I think we could call it a "Scholocracy" or "Doctocracy."

Feeling much improved, but a special visitor may be paying me a visit on the assumption I'm sick, so *cough *cough*.